Because Rob's gone.

And I miss him.

...And the kids are driving me crazy and I need a minute or two (or 4 minutes and 37 seconds) of peace.

But mostly because I miss him.

My blue rainbow.

After carrying and giving birth to Wren there was little left of my faith. 

I felt like I had been dismantled and broken piles of me were all over the place. 

Bits and pieces of the person I used to be were all that were left and even though I had just been blessed with this lovely, healthy little creature (x3) I wondered if God was really... there. 

This pregnancy was like nothing I had ever experienced before. 

I was low. 

So very low.

And then God started putting me back together. 

Little by little, piece by piece.

My heart was being coaxed back into health.

Faith being restored.

Faith that used to be counterfeit in many ways traded in for quite possibly a smaller measure but a measure that was genuine and worth more than all the stacks of counterfeit I had before.

And it started with these blues.

 

A reminder.

You can call it genetics. A lesson in probability. Whatever you want. 

But to me, a rainbow. 

Bike riding in January

Thinking about home.

Home. 

Here.

There.

Now. 

Then.

I don't know anymore.

But like it or not, 

June is coming. 

And when it comes, 

we go...

...home. 

Home? 

Home.


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The handmades

Handmades found their way into all the kids hands this year. And while I was nervous they would make me happier than the kids, I am pleasantly surprised by their positive response to them.

Yoda for Ephram.

Clarice (we may or may not have watched Rudolph A LOT last month) the Deer for Elin. 

And a new little dolly (a la Shelley!) for Wren.

Elin got a new little play kitchen this year as well so I got my hands into the felt food pot and we're hooked, me and her. Even if I didn't really love all the little stitches it takes to make these (and I do!), seeing the play it has produced would be more than enough incentive to keep adding to her grocery bag. 

Food
Deer
Dolly

Christmas

Christmas holidays in pictures. The ones I actually remembered to take that is.