27 April 2010

there is a baby growing inside of me

and I don't want to talk about it.


Someday I'm sure this will all turn out well, but for now I am having a hard time seeing past all the puking, the anxiety, the depression, the aches, the pains, the fear, the tiredness...


Not what I was expecting this year. I wish it was next year. Or twenty from now. Anything but the right now that doesn't seem to be going away.